Friday, May 25, 2012

An unexpected setback

I've been a solitary runner for a long time.  and i'm still running bcos it makes me feel good.  it energises me, it boosts up my spirit and above all, its that little sliver of time i get to call my very own, doing what i really like.  for a woman with neverending responsibilities as wife, mother & daughter i treasure the opportunity to just be me, myself, i... and God.  other than in my prayers, He's closest to me when i'm pounding that pavement. i get my head cleared that way lol.

Then came 2011 and it ushered in another aspect of running,  the people factor...  that i didnt have to run alone, that there were other like minded people out there hellbent on wearing out that tarmac lol.  and that's when i hooked up with my running family & friends.  i started training and running races, experimented with my running form, increased my mileage and after completing my first half marathon, felt that my dream of running a full marathon was finally within my grasp.  weehooooo,  i was going to run a full, that only-in-my-dreams 42km.

Then came the big blow to my grand plans. in late december i suffered my first sport related injury.. i had somehow aggravated my plantar fascia and developed plantar faciitis.  oh me oh my, thats when i realised just how very blessed i was to be running injury free all those years. bcos i tell ya peeps, u dont wanna go hurting yourself when you're past 50.. it just takes too damn long to bounce back!!

Chillin' out with toffee

After months of trying out several treatments, from prolonged resting to icy footbaths to hot waxing to ultrasound to electrical what have yous, i finally succumbed to what i still consider to be the most evasive option - an anti inflammatory steroid jab right at the source of my pain. theres no guarantee that i'll be within the 70 percentile of patients who respond well to the treatment, but i choose to be hopeful.  after 2 weeks i get to try out my foot and hopefully, everything will be back to normal.

Icy footbaths can be quite painful

Physiotherapy session in progress

Finally... 'the jab'

This year, the only run i participated in was one i just couldnt miss out on, it being right in my backyard lol. the shapadu run 2012... and bcos it was one of those obscure lil races the elites dont even bother with, i came in 4th for the women veteran category, surprise surprise.  but it wasnt a run i was happy with. i was way too mindful of the pain in my foot.  i couldnt just belasah and give it my all like always and it was pretty damn frustrating.


Women Veteran 6km - 4th

Checking out the medal & RM50 prize money

Checking out the foot..  lil twinges of pain but not too bad

i just want to get back where i left off and continue from there. theres still so much to do, so many miles to run before i hit that elusive 42.  but as always i'm hopeful.  and i'm lucky to have the support of my running family & friends. they are the main source of my inspiration... truth be told, hitting the roads at my age can be pretty challenging.  with friends and a coach more than willing to help me out, i know, God willing, one fine day i'll finally make it as a marathoner :-))

With my running kids

.. and running buddies  :))

With fellow blogger Ray

But lesson learnt, respect the age & keep listening to that body.  everyone has their own limits, and if that limit needs to be tested, take it slow & easy.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

The 50s, a different journey

You always hear people say that age is just a number.  of course it is.. 30, 40, 50 and if you're blessed with a long & healthy life the numbers can keep piling up.  but that doesnt mean that you dont go through physiological & physical changes.  a body is after all just another piece of 'equipment' that goes through wear & tear no matter how well it has been treated and maintained.

So its inevitable that we go through these changes, nature is relentless & time waits for no one. but its not totally out of our control.  what we can do is have a bigger say in how this changes come about.  we can decide to be actively involved in the process and extend all the help we can give to make the transitions from one stage to another less traumatic.

Being in denial is the worst state to be in.  we need to see it as it is, everything that is created has a life span.  we need to recognise that basic truth and maximise each stage as it comes.  and whatever we do, we need to respect the age.

When my kids were growing up i always reminded them to be as realistic as possible.  my favourite saying was, 'dont expect a dog to meow or a cat to bark, we are all true to our creation but if, and its a big if, u find one who does than consider it a bonus'.  yup, looking back i was a party pooper alright lol but that was just the way i was. fairy tales were fine for entertainment but in the final analysis, life was still life.  i wanted them to be realistically hopeful.. ridiculous expectations would only bring about devastating disappointment.

Realistically hopeful. and being realistic must not to be confused with pessimism.  for the realist, theres always HOPE :)

Now i'm at the point in my life that i really need to call it as it is.  inside, i'm still that wide-eyed, dreamy person out to discover the world, but the fact remains that i've hit middle-age and half my life has already passed me by.  And that although the world is still my oyster, my approach must be tailored to suit my current needs.

Growing old sucks, i know but we can minimize the damage and still have fun if we take stock of where we are and strategize realistically.  denying the existence of that wrinkle is not going to take it away hehehe.

OK I'm past 50 but i still can be the best that i can be in my 50s ;-))

My buddies from primary school @ 51.. we're not doing too badly surely lol

p.s. Case in point, when u hit middle-age, you are somehow not as sharp as you were... my daughter just reminded me that today's thursday not friday, referring to my FB update.  Its NOT friday? really? sheeesh, and i was all geared up to chilling out tomorrow LOL.

Need to do more quizzes i guess.... and read more Quranic verses to keep the synapses thriving ;)