Tuesday, December 21, 2010

2008 & 2010

Both meaningful years, pain ridden & heartbreaking but monumental in shaping my personal growth.

The greatest barrier in our quest for continuous improvement i think is always the tendency to fall into a rut & to take things for granted.  and as you get older, it gets easier.  sliding into a certain comfort zone becomes almost second nature, you've reached a certain level  and just dont feel the need to push yourself anymore.  therein lies the problem, routine slowly kills all vestiges of passion and without passion its hard to feel 'alive'.

The recurring events of 2008 & 2010 have indeed turned my world upside down but the 'cold water' effect couldnt be more timely.. i needed to be waken from my deep slumber. if jannah is my goal, as i suppose it is with everyone of faith, then i certainly must reconsider the direction i am heading.  with the clock ticking away, i might not be able to catch up... theres so much that needs improvement.

 (Pic from google images)

I am still hopeful that my journey will not be made alone, i am still hopeful that my dreams & aspirations are shared but the truth of the matter is, we are all personally accountable for whatever choices we make so in the end, we're on our own.  i cant afford the luxury of continuously wallowing in self pity nor lamenting in regret.  enough of dancing to the tune of others, its time i take charge of whatever's left of my life.

Lets get on with it.

8 comments:

June Malik said...

amin :)

Oldstock said...

You were heartbroken in both years? So sorry about that... but I am sure you'll move on. Because you are a runner... and runners never give up.

Not like me, who thinks walking that 1km is a chore, hehe...

Justiffa said...

Double amin gf ;D

Justiffa said...

OldStock, semakin tua semakin sensitive what to do.

And yes, giving up is never an option runner or not...life needs to be lived right, the broken heart can tampal plaster lol ;p

Hey, try 2km whn 2011 hits... mana tau kot terseronok plak :)

Nin said...

Sounds like a new year resolution at the end there =)

All the best.

Ordinary Superhero said...

My prayers to you. All the best.

Justiffa said...

Gathering strength here lol..thx nin, all the best to u too :)

Justiffa said...

OS - tq tq my doas for u & family osso :D